by hillarybiscay

Mr. Woodling complained that the GCM’s Leadman victory only merited “one dinky picture” on the blog.

cat leadman win

That’s because I had to spread out the good news this week, Mr. Woodling! I knew that I was going to need some more happy material for forthcoming blogs so the winner’s photo gallery had to wait ‘til the next one.

You see, in the interest of authenticity, although I hate to do so, I have to admit that I’ve been dealing with a bit of a “situation” for the past few weeks. I hate the “I” word, so I will just say “situation.” And after—well, no, by the middle of—the race this weekend, my rapidly-diminishing denial about said “situation” had been smacked right out of me.

And I still had to find a way to make it from the lake up to Boulder City. I had gotten myself into this “situation,” and I have rules about finishing things—races, namely—that I have started, so I had to find a way to get there.

Even though I couldn’t really run uphill. I would describe my “run”—because of course I still insisted on pretending– as something that resembled slow speed-walking. Basically I just pumped my arms as hard as I could in order to make my legs move. And exercised a lot of patience.


I did eventually make it there. But not without being forced to realize that I did indeed have a “situation” on my hands, about which I had spent most of the previous month being in denial. And I knew that I needed to not put myself on another start line until it was sorted.

So that was a bit of a bummer.

leadman cat post-race

Cat really wasn’t bummed, though; I think he just looks a bit ill here because he had just finished his traditional post-race puke-fest. Yay, Cat! And yay Ian for looking fresh as a daisy after that smashfest!

Anyways, to conclude this discussion about the “situation,” it is probably just today that I can finally talk about it because I feel like the countless hours I have spent with various docs and therapists working on my back and hips over the past couple weeks might be starting to take effect: today I was actually able to run ironman pace off the bike for the first time in over a month! Yes I realize that this shouldn’t be a big ask, but that is how pathetic I let the situation get here.

Denial is a powerful thing. Convincing oneself of things that aren’t real is a skill that can come in handy during endurance races, but can also come back to bite one on other occasions!

I am so thankful for the daily—often 2x per day—work with Dr. Eric Vindiola here in Tucson; between this and the recent addition of the miracle worker, Dr. John Ball, to the mix, I will be back soon!

{ 6 comments… read them below or add one }

lucy francis April 5, 2012 at 12:16 am

I’m so sorry to hear that. the majority of us are familiar with the denial thing and i for one came into the sport with a weightlifting injury that resulted in cronic back pain for 5 years. thanfully got sorted with the help of my osteopath and pilates, but there were very dark times when I didn’t know how was I going to be able to keep going. My advice to you is that whatever the issue is, you will recover.


Kelly April 5, 2012 at 5:12 am

Hillary! Take care of yourself. You are really amazing. I hope that the work you are doing makes this situation simply become a past thought. Take it easy!!


Damie April 5, 2012 at 5:33 am

oh no! when you said situation, I automatically thought “back.” SHOOT! Yes, that was a situation even early March! Man….bummer 🙁 Love you tons. You are as tough as nails, and I always think of you when I have the “do-not-walk” mantra. Would have loved to see that fist pumping speed walk up the hill. xo


Michelle Simmons April 5, 2012 at 10:23 am

Blah. Sorry to hear this! I like the term ‘situation’ though… I have my own little ‘situation’ going on here now too. Blah. Good thing for professional body worker people who know how to help! Hope you get better and are 100% functional again soon!


J.W. April 5, 2012 at 3:39 pm

Being pleased with Maik’s competition is a happy thing. Learning of your “situation” is a very unhappy thing. How great it is that you have each other. All of your friends and fans wish the best for both of you. Hope that the all things will soon be happy for both of you. Love you.


Andree April 5, 2012 at 5:36 pm

I hope you’re OK!! as a therapist I can say that admitting there is a “situation” is a huge first step :). Soooo glad you are surrounded by amazing docs! I am thankful to have those myself and it makes all the difference in the world. Praying for speedy healing for you!!


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